I wrote this as a note on my phone earlier, as I have taken to mini journaling on my phone. I did then later take to my notebook journal and wrote, however. I have written these types of posts a few times and have kept them in my drafts, fearful of posting them online. But this one feels real, it feels more raw than anything in a long time after a recent knock down over the last weekend, and I wanted to get it out. This is quite a lot different to other posts, so I apologise if it is too much, but then should I be apologising for being real?
February has been far from an easy month, so I thought I would focus on some of the positives and share some nice photos I’ve taken. I dug my mirrorless camera out recently after neglecting it for some time, and have enjoyed using it to take more quality shots than my phone, so I hope you enjoy them too.
Last Saturday night I had a moment of bravery. I deleted my social media apps. Since last Saturday I have said goodbye to Instagram and tumblr, and also deleted my (very extremely rarely used) Facebook and Twitter apps, with the intention of not using them for, well, at least a good few weeks. I haven’t let go of YouTube, as to me that isn’t ‘social media’ in a damaging way, I only follow about 4 people who actively post videos anyway.
I haven’t really done a Favourites in a while, I guess this is a collection of favourites from a few months! So there is a good mix of home, skincare, make-up and foodies, but I did try to focus on ones I have been really enjoying in January. I hope you have found something you enjoy in your January.
I am fully aware that this is quite a late post for one of this style. But 2018 ended on quite a sour note for me. My fingers felt restless from lack of posting (plus I did say it is my goal to do so more!) so I wanted to reflect on the good things of 2018, even if it is a little late.
This is a surprisingly personal post, I suppose I am surprising myself by writing this. One of the things I want to do with the New Year here is attempt to blog more regularly. I enjoy writing, and want to connect better with the outside world. So with it being the seventh day of the New Year, I supposed I ought to get started. This will maybe be quite a rambly post, just an advanced warning!
Firstly I want to apologise for how long overdue this post is. I intended to do it the week when I came back, but what with leaving hospital the same week and the unpacking that comes with that plus a holiday, it got a little pushed to the wayside!
11 weeks ago yesterday I admitted myself to hospital to treat the anorexia. It sounds strange to write to ‘treat’ it, because it isn’t something you can put an antiseptic cream on or take a medicine for. Sure, it involves medication to help the physical side, but the real anorexia voice cannot be treated in the same way.
I realised I haven’t actually done a favourites post in a while, and this month I have been discovering quite a few lovely things I wanted to share, it’s quite a mix, and all cruelty free too!
On the 11th June 2018, my Mother and I made the awful decision of saying goodbye to Harry, our wonderful cat of 11 years and 10 months. I haven’t written about losing him yet openly, it has all felt still too raw, however, am feeling slightly in a place to do so. The middle of this post is quite deep, which I have highlighted in italics.